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my Mum also died from pancreatic cancer but she was in a hospice and I wasn't there with her. It was funny how as she got worse the more I hoped she would hurry up and die, the end was inevitable but I just wanted the suffering to stop.

When I came back down (from Scotland) for the funeral I went to see her in the funeral home and found it very difficult to see her but desperately wanted to say good bye. The undertaker left a net veil over the coffin which made it feel much easier and I stroked her hand through the veil to say goodbye. Back on to topic this is the only dead body I have seen and being 34 it is a bit surprising, however I am sure it will allways be the worst.

I apologise for potential rambling but for some reason felt I had to share. Death is not always bad but sometimes a relief when you see someone suffering so badly alive.
(Studentken is looking for motivation on, Thu 28 Feb 2008, 12:50, Reply)