I agree with Vampyrecat
I don't like this, but fuck me, I have a huge amount of respect for you for laying your heart on the line.

Unfortunately, as a paramedic, I have frequently come across the people who have gambled and lost. Remember you only have to lose once.

I really hope you are now doing better and getting the support you need. And if there is ever any time you need to vent again, then there are many, many worse places to come than here. We're a good bunch, by and large.

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( Undercovercarrot got done for gross misconduct on..., Sun 10 May 2009, 14:14, 1 reply)

Thanks Carrot
Looking back on it a year and a bit later, it scares me how close I came to losing everything so quickly. And in cases like mine, once you've lost it, there's nothing you can do. You can't win it back. That's it.

I've put myself through a year of CBT, which has helped with dealing with the negative parts of my bipolarity. I did try a course of lithium to stabilise my mood but that only partially worked and so me and my doctor decided to stop that. Most other drugs tend to make me feel like a zombie, so I'm off the drugs and dealing with it with the help of my few friends and family.

And yeah, B3ta has been an amazing place. The previous QOTWs tend to let me forget my mood and enjoy myself. So hats off to everyone here.
(Ghost Atreides enjoying incontestable health benefits on, Sun 10 May 2009, 14:41, closed)