Karmic Retribution?
I was 16, severely messed up from events I don't need to go into here, and pretty emotionally vulnerable, (not to mention very immature!) - some of the reasons I got ensnared into a bizarre underworld which, by comparison, make the shenanigans of Shameless look pretty tame...

I got pregnant at 16, and, while in such a happy condition, my partner (to give you a flavour of his lovely nature) was basically shagging anything that walked, buggering off out of our flat at 6 am to go to his mum's with the only set of keys, so I was either forced to stay at home or wander the streets til he decided to come home...he spiked my tea with lsd 'for a laugh', seduced his 15 year old cousin in our flat, sided with some of his mates who'd raped a girl by holding her down in turns (which, incidentally, was so similar to the reasons I left home as could not tell my alcoholic mother/workaholic father)...I obviously didn't know the last fact til I was pregnant and had burnt all my bridges and teenage pride...stupidly, one of the reasons I was attracted to him was because I thought he'd stop anything else evil happening to me...

It culminated in him beating me up and locking me in the car one sunny August afternoon after I'd asked for a few hours with friends instead of incessant baby care and housework - basically, even though they were all female, we were playing pool, I was 3 stone overweight, he accused me of playing around.

As we sped around the hole of the town where I grew up he told me he was going to knock me out and torch the car with me in it...

There aren't many times I've been so terrified - I did the only thing I thought I could and leapt out of the car - hey, better to kill yourself that sit by and let someone else do it. I just vaguely remember seeing out of the corner of my eye the spreading pool of blood on the road and hearing people screaming...

Fast forward a bit (I have to, I've lost months/years of detailed memories because of losing so many brain cells on the road - though, funnily enough, my dad says that's what finally knocked some sense into me - every cloud huh?)

He got it together with a younger girl (I was 18 by the time of the accident) and they had another baby. The only time I saw him cry was when that baby was born...

Before anyone starts yelling at me - this is NOT NOT NOT the karmic point (although he, the stupid bastard that he is, thought it was god's way of punishing him for being a C*nt)

She was born with Down's syndrome - and is really badly affected by it (I've got a couple of mates with Down's and you can only tell they have it by the physical characteristics - it affects different people to different degrees) and as one of the side effects had hole in her heart. Surgery to correct this caused alopecia, so little Beth is bald, she also has massive difficulties in speaking, so communicates part by speaking, part by sign language - my son (there's a 3 year age gap) learnt it, so they always got on really well - she really loves her big brother.

Anyway, the Karmic Retribution for Charlie was Beth, not because of her genetic makeup - but because she's the only woman who's ever stood up to him.

Now, Beth's perfectly able to have a conversation and know exactly what she wants, and is a loving and beautiful young lady - if you can be bothered to listen to her and learn to speak with her - but this guy's way of bringing (hauling) up the next generation is to belittle, intimidate, bully and insult them. He told me about 5 years ago he thought our son would grow up gay (as if it mattered) because he was always in clean clothes and had nice manners....

So a strong minded, 'no-shit' attitude little girl who has so far grown up to far out-weigh his 9 stone 5'6" frame seems to be just what he needed. Seeing her thwack him one in his shins when he's putting her, or someone she loves down,is quite heart warming...and it makes me love her all the more for it...

She takes no shit from him, she tells him like it is, seeing her one time tip a whole bucket of MuckDonalds fizz on his head as he was driving (his un-mot'd, un-insured car, the toss) when he was being his characteristic, knob-like self was hilarious.

She has no fear, she does not give a duck for social niceties, she's never been worried by thoughts of 'scared of being rude to my dad even though he's a bucket full of w@nk'.

She tells it like it is, and that is a gift, not a disability.

She's the daughter I always wanted, feisty, strong minded, perfectly intelligent, (just unable to communicate in the way than the majority of people can) The icing on the cake is that she is the only person who can let him know what a fuckwit he is - and know that he doesn't know what to make of it.

Heh, Beth rocks!

As a little p.s. my own son, Kieran finally got shot of his father about 6 weeks ago - he (nearly 15, skateboarding, guitar playing, Kurt Cobain lookalikee, friends with girls because they're people too, and doing bloody well despite having such shits for parents thus far) had a call from him, and nearly vomited when his father (sperm donor) informed him he was trying to impregnate a girl the same age as most of Kieran's friends - 18.

Kie put the phone down...thought about it...asked me and slimtallgoth's opinion...and promptly rang him back, and left the following message - you're a f*cking paedophile and if you ever come near me I'm going to rip a door off it's hinges, ram that down your throat and shove the knob up your ar$e!

I don't think Beth could have put it better herself.
( curvylittlegoth heard the voices in your head on, Tue 26 Feb 2008, 0:18, 18 replies)

love you
x
(misskitty reeks of sex and turpentine; laudanum afternoons, Tue 26 Feb 2008, 0:36, closed)

...
I'm glad you finally got clear of that jerk.
And that you stay in contact with your son's half-sister. Beth and Kieran both sound fantastic.
( flirting with badgers What? It sounded good at the time., Tue 26 Feb 2008, 0:51, closed)

You rock
All the best to you and yours. Keep on, you sound like one of the bravest persons I know.
(Dr Teeth Who asked you, you fuckin' hobbit?, Tue 26 Feb 2008, 1:01, closed)

You, my dear
are truly fucking wonderful!
x
( Batshitmentalist is sane for once, Tue 26 Feb 2008, 1:20, closed)

Paedophile
When she was 18? Hmm.
(DjArcas, Tue 26 Feb 2008, 1:33, closed)

Your kids....
Sound awesome and it seems you have done a good job with your son :)
(Guilt wants to get in your moist confines, Tue 26 Feb 2008, 1:47, closed)

ook
He's an arse and you all rock.
(bluetuba has a special friend in Blue Label Smirnoff, Tue 26 Feb 2008, 3:19, closed)

Im not really a believer....
.... In God. But it just goes to show that maybe there are some forces at work there. As he sent him someone to try and make him change his ways. Doesnt sound like it fully worked though, so your sons reaction is priceless! *CLICKS*
(Miggyman, Tue 26 Feb 2008, 8:21, closed)

You star!
Kudos to you and those two kids! You guys rock!
(TAZ220 Not giving a toss since, Tue 26 Feb 2008, 9:48, closed)

*Shame*
You know, despite my troubles I've led a charmed life compared to a lot of people on this site.

Makes me humble to share the screen with such folk.
( girlinthehole, Tue 26 Feb 2008, 9:49, closed)

That...
was beautiful.
And has made me smile on this rare sunny day.
I hope Kie was rewarded!
(joepublic 's opinion does not represent that of the public, Tue 26 Feb 2008, 10:37, closed)

.
ace
( catness, Tue 26 Feb 2008, 10:48, closed)

WELL DONE GIRL!
You're an inspiration. You did well to get shut of a b@st@rd like that and gained 2 great kids from it. *Good Luck with everything* X
( DUMBLONDE is a rubber lover girl, Tue 26 Feb 2008, 11:22, closed)

Absolutely brill
Possibly the best I've read so far - Beth and Kieren sound like they got none of the shit genes off their dad :O)
( Matoosh would rather like a biscuit, Tue 26 Feb 2008, 11:25, closed)

Lovely
Just... lovely.

And while trying to impregnate (erm, why, exactly?) an 18 year old doesn't make your ex a kiddy fiddler (don't be pedantic, DjArcas), I agree wholheartedly with your son's summation of the situation. His Dad's a worthless, immature prick and he's well shot of him.
( Davros' Granddad a voice of calm reason in a world of spastics., Tue 26 Feb 2008, 12:13, closed)

Niiiiice
Good kids
(Pointless as a chavs bathroom, Tue 26 Feb 2008, 17:35, closed)

*Claps loudly*
and takes a note not to mess with your son or his wee sister

*click*
(TheWeeWitch hasn't been here much recently .., Tue 26 Feb 2008, 17:59, closed)

ooh!
Hey thanks for all the lovely messages :) You making me cry just a little bit you're all so lovely :):)

To Djarcus - I take your point, 18 is not *technically* a child - but this guy is nearly 40, and since I've known him (about 17 years) he's been fixated on really young girls - hence I was with him at 15/16 when he was 21

The reason Kie called him a paedophile was because it really did make him cry at the thought of his father going after girls of nearly his own age - it made him feel physically sick.

To me, a kid of 18 is just a kid, I know in our culture it was always the case that older guys ogle young girls but I really can't see anyone arguing that that is acceptable - I had a 'friend' a couple of years ago of my age, who got really hooked on chasing teenage lads - this is just one of the reasons she is now an ex friend - her 'baby-sitting' my teenage son while I was at college just didn't sit right...

Anyway, I really am touched by all the messages - you guys have put a big beamy smile on my little face, so thankyou! Big hugs! x
( curvylittlegoth heard the voices in your head on, Tue 26 Feb 2008, 22:14, closed)